Walking away from it all…

Growing up in a family full of narcists and psychos. I made it out barely. I was raised to think I was going to be a no body. That I was just nothing. I was told I could have been given away and I’m lucky she didn’t. I get lied about and disrespected for defending my own family. I literally am accused of things that never happened only because of their jealously or because I spoke the TRUTH. People attack me and my family first then say I’m the one who started things. Never have I lied about anything I have said about a person and I never will. I’m 100 % honest and will always be that way. I am cutting the rotten ouy of my life for good. No more handouts no more shoulder for people to cry on no more listening. I’m done with it all. People are cruel and unjust in their behaviors. It’s apparently wrong to want face to face judgement and communication. Because everyone loves online now. Or whispers behinds everyone’s back. I’m a weird person I guess. I like to talk things out face to face. I have earned everything and did everything in my life on my own. I don’t get handouts, I don’t have a daddy bail me out. Shit the only dad I knew treated me like a piece of shit till I joined the military. But at the end of the day after all the bs I have learned I alone have my back. I alone have to defend myself and I alone will always be better than the spoiled, self rightious people I know. Here’s to never ever speaking to another soul in my life.

Life as I know it

It is so frustrating when people act as if you have all the time in the world. Everyone wants something from me whether it be my time, money, or something. Never do I get a break in this life. I’m constantly running out of time and never do I finish things all in one day. But I am reminded by other they too are impatient and need something from me. Why is it people can be so intrusive, cruel, use others whether it be for time or money, knowing it is wrong. I don’t get it. I love my life with my small family and there are people who just won’t leave us alone no matter how much I try to do the right thing. What is the right thing to do? Because no matter what I do, minding my own business people still emotionally abuse me. When will it stop? No matter how honest and up front I am, when will it stop?

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Never easy in life.

No matter what you say or do people will judge you, lie about you, and even blame you for things they had every part in. I’ve been called allot of things but stalker has never been one. Lol till tonight. I find it cute people think I check up on them when I want nothing to do with them. I’m childish but they have screen shots in their phone from year ago 😂 I just can’t with the crazy. I got enough of my own crazy. I always admit when I’m wrong and if I said something. I just wish people would get it through their heads I’m doing 10x better than they ever will. I’m not checking up on no one and I’m loving my life. I’m just that rare person that prefers face to face conversation rather than technology fighting even if that means waiting a year to do so. I’m patient only in that way. Lol I stand up for people who don’t deserve it and I was raised in a family that never wanted me in the first place. I am human and I make mistakes as does everyone. But I own my shit. Every little thing. So I wish people would just stop. Stop lying, stop using people, and realize I could

careless if you died tomorrow. This family I no was raised in isn’t shit and won’t ever be shit. I am a veteran, I have 2 college degrees, I go to therapy and I know when to ask for help because who isn’t crazy these days but do not ever say I’m a liar or stalker cause those are 2 things I’m not. I defend my love ones and I realize they must fight their own fight. I’m done. And I can not wait to move far from Lakeland. Soon isn’t soon enough.

Life

When was life ever promised to be easy
When has it ever given the perception of perfection,
If you believe this to be true you are creating deception.
Life with out pain and suffering is something no one escapes.
Human beings are made up of love, pain & mistakes.
somethings will hurt inside, somethings will ache.
Life will give you love, hope, and dreams
Life is unknowing, and at times hard.
What you can count on is that once you are given life
It is up to you to do the best you can with what you are given.
Regardless of you trials and tribulations,
Look for kindness, patience, and a love from within
It starts with you till your very end
This life is yours and yours alone, do what makes you happy.
Don’t get sappy.
I enjoy my happy moments as you should yours
And when those hard days come
Don’t give up, become
The hero in your own story, don’t worry.
Smile at those that try to do you harm and
Give thanks to those that teach you in lessons of life.
We are all in it together whether you like it or not.

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