I don’t even know where to start . . . The awful child hood memories or the memories I’ve received as an adult. I have oldest child syndrome, where I do the most for no apparent reason. I do the good daughter thing, I help my parents out every chance I can even if it breaks me. What do I get it of it?! I get my mother always and I mean ALWAYS choosing her drug addict, thief, violent, multiple convicted son over even her grandchildren. She allowed this guy around my children always letting him bring his crack head gfs and friends around her grandchildren and youngest child in her home. Her explanation, “she would never turn away her children if they need a shower or food”. That’s not the case because I remember very vividly how my children and I were kicked out because I wrote her a letter about her truths and addictions and attitude years ago prior to me going into the military. But never has her son ever ever been treated in that manner. I’ve ignored and let go so much abuse in my life and let them replace truths with their versions of lies and abuse but NO MORE! I am done, I hope she is ok with the choices she’s made in her life. Because I am happy with my choice. I will no longer enable a mother who has no respect for her children, grandchildren or family. I will put my kids first always even if that means if I have to cut them off and not enable their bad behavior so they can actually grow and learn instead of always thinking they can do as they please and hurt the people around them. I will do everything in my power to protect my children even if that’s from their own Grand mother. Life is hard, family is even harder and I am no ones escape goat any longer. These are grown adults always placing blame every except where it belongs. I’m done.
Growing up in a family full of narcists and psychos. I made it out barely. I was raised to think I was going to be a no body. That I was just nothing. I was told I could have been given away and I’m lucky she didn’t. I get lied about and disrespected for defending my own family. I literally am accused of things that never happened only because of their jealously or because I spoke the TRUTH. People attack me and my family first then say I’m the one who started things. Never have I lied about anything I have said about a person and I never will. I’m 100 % honest and will always be that way. I am cutting the rotten ouy of my life for good. No more handouts no more shoulder for people to cry on no more listening. I’m done with it all. People are cruel and unjust in their behaviors. It’s apparently wrong to want face to face judgement and communication. Because everyone loves online now. Or whispers behinds everyone’s back. I’m a weird person I guess. I like to talk things out face to face. I have earned everything and did everything in my life on my own. I don’t get handouts, I don’t have a daddy bail me out. Shit the only dad I knew treated me like a piece of shit till I joined the military. But at the end of the day after all the bs I have learned I alone have my back. I alone have to defend myself and I alone will always be better than the spoiled, self rightious people I know. Here’s to never ever speaking to another soul in my life.
No matter what you say or do people will judge you, lie about you, and even blame you for things they had every part in. I’ve been called allot of things but stalker has never been one. Lol till tonight. I find it cute people think I check up on them when I want nothing to do with them. I’m childish but they have screen shots in their phone from year ago 😂 I just can’t with the crazy. I got enough of my own crazy. I always admit when I’m wrong and if I said something. I just wish people would get it through their heads I’m doing 10x better than they ever will. I’m not checking up on no one and I’m loving my life. I’m just that rare person that prefers face to face conversation rather than technology fighting even if that means waiting a year to do so. I’m patient only in that way. Lol I stand up for people who don’t deserve it and I was raised in a family that never wanted me in the first place. I am human and I make mistakes as does everyone. But I own my shit. Every little thing. So I wish people would just stop. Stop lying, stop using people, and realize I could
careless if you died tomorrow. This family I no was raised in isn’t shit and won’t ever be shit. I am a veteran, I have 2 college degrees, I go to therapy and I know when to ask for help because who isn’t crazy these days but do not ever say I’m a liar or stalker cause those are 2 things I’m not. I defend my love ones and I realize they must fight their own fight. I’m done. And I can not wait to move far from Lakeland. Soon isn’t soon enough.
Bridge Burning in the non-literal sense of the words is something that takes time and practice. I have burned bridges before, you know teenage bridge burning when you are learning about how to become an adult and ultimately a good human being. But adult bridge burning is a whole other level and takes a lot less work than people think. Now, it took practice but I have become great at burning bridges. I not only will burn a bridge, but I burn it down while I am on it so people know I am very serious about the ending of the relationship whether it be with a friend or family member. I like to instantly cut off anything that is not good for my mental state and ultimately my health. Especially, considering how precious my mental state is to me.
People say, “I burned that bridge a long time ago”, well let’s ask a few questions to see if you actually burned that bridge. Have you lurked on their life on social media? Have you asked others or a middle party about how the other individual is doing? Do you literally make up fake Facebook posts to stalk those individuals ( this is a real thing, I knew a person who has these fake FB pages just for lurking and stalking) If so, then NO you did not burn that bridge! No, you haven’t let go of that anger or unhappiness for that person. I have been in therapy for a long time for multiple mental issues like depression, anxiety, and panic attacks, so I find it necessary to let go and burn any bridge with any individual that does not bring me happiness or may stress me out. This means completely letting go of that individual or individuals. That means do not give them a second thought, that means when someone brings their name up you shut that shit down and refuse to bring up such negativity.
That is burning a bridge. Never allow another soul to make you as a person depressed, stressed, or negative. Life is not a competition and there is no one who is making it out alive so dispose of people who do not bring you happiness, strength, or support. Be who “you” want to be regardless of social norms what people think you should be. BE YOU!! BE WEIRD!! BE UNIQUE!! The world needs more of those people. In the end, BURN those bridges with those negative people completely, DO NOT LOOK BACK. It is the best, non- stressful, weightlifting experience you will have when letting go of things or people that are not good for your life or mental state. It took me a long time to grasp that strength and learn to completely walk away from what is not good for me or my life. I have more to learn but one thing is for sure, my life has done nothing but gotten better since I learned the technique of BURNING BRIDGES. Let me know how you let go. I am always willing to learn new and creative ways to dispose of negative energies, people, or things that bring me unhappiness.
Pour the mental gasoline, light the mental match and mentally burn it down to the ground. No one that actually loves you wants you to fail or be in pain. Sometimes, loved ones hurt you but they show remorse and regret and do not want you to hurt or put negativity on you. For those other ugly individuals…. well… light that match and walk away whole heartedly.