Parents

Have you ever been some where with your kid like dance classes, cheerleading or any after school events and noticed the parents judgement being passed around towards one another and the toppers who just can’t help themselves? Lol, it is something I thoroughly enjoy watching. I never engage in such things like that. I’ve been around individuals that did nothing but try to be toppers and judge and make people feel less important than them. That is something I’m not about and never will be. I love myself and people’s authenticities. Not what they may have or may not have or pretending to be fake. So what do I do in these situations you ask? Well, I put my head phones in and observe there very imperfect human naturea 🤣😉😊❤️ . Stay weird, be different, and remember there is no other person you have to impress. 🥰

Placing Blame

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When as an adult does one look at themselves and accept responsibility for their actions? For instance, I won’t name anyone in particular because this can be for all kinds of people, but when you make a mistake or hurt another maybe not intentionally at the time because you did not know any better maybe because that was just your surroundings or how you were raised. But then there is the awakening when there are consequences to your actions and instead of placing blame where it belongs you point your finger to another or completely ignore the situation and when being faced with it you act as if it never happened or its obviously someone else’s fault. I want to tell a story about a young mixed girl that was raised in a racist family. That technically was not her biological family just one she was put in to by a marriage. Now she was raised with name calling and emotionally and physical abuse that will never be acknowledged or apologized for, which is fine. That young girl is now a woman and a mother herself, where she is loved and admired for all that she is. Now, those same abusers that she was raised around were of course not of mixed blood and had their ignorance’s and values and assumptions on how the world should work, for instance their white daughters could no way ever be with a black man and if so, they would be punished. Now this lonely mixed girl, the only one of mixed race in the family at the time heard these things out of the patriarchs of these families she was thrown into. Ask yourself, how was she supposed to feel? Does she feel excluded? Does she feel scared? Now at the time of these remarks, that had happened as far back she could remember it started at a very young age. Let’s skip to the future a little bit. those kids grew, she grew, and those patriarchs’ daughters did date black guys and even one had mixed kids of her own. Now, one of those patriarchs smiles down at his beautiful grandchildren with nothing but love and admiration. But, yet that once young girl who is now a woman looks and studies those same people and never have, they apologized for their actions for those awful things they did and once said and instilled into their children. Which by the way if you haven’t caught on yet it was hate. He was ignorantly teaching hate. This is not the only man, nor women that will do this or continue to do this but, in this situation, in this story I still wonder when someone accepts blame and responsibility for their actions. Do they stare at those grand children or nieces and nephews with guilt in their heart? Or do they place blame to others, ignore it, or even act as if they never were that way? It is hard to say, because again that little girl that had been abused by these men and their families never acknowledge their faults or mistakes as a human being and love to place blame where it does not belong. I can admit when I am wrong, because I happen to be human and sometimes, I wish those people or any person with those faults place blame where it really belongs. Racism, hate, discrimination and ignorance are taught, and people need to place the blame where it belongs and accept responsibility for their own actions. People may not say it, may not acknowledge it but it is there, when they look at that person and it may be forgiven but it is not forgotten. But one thing is for sure that little girl who is a woman now makes sure to raise her children with the love and respect all human kind deserves. People must have patience for themselves and for others.

Bye

When is enough, enough? When do you stop defending your loved ones? When has it become ok to hide behind a computer screen and argue like a scared kid? That’s what bullies do. I don’t. I do not hide from anyone. I’m not a child and I don’t stalk people on social media EVER. One thing is true though. I do speak the truth whether it is in person or on social media. I have no problem admitting when I’m wrong and when I need to apologise. But I am a good person. I make mistakes and I defended my family when I shouldn’t have. I believed my family when they were just trying to hurt me. The jokes on them. Cause their lives will always be worthless. They all will be stuck in their perpetual ignorance and lies. But I’m setting myself free. I’m letting go of them all. I’m taking my kids and I’m going as soon as I can. If you have a family that continues to bully, shame you, spread lies or degrade you then just leave. Blood is not everything. You can make a family some where else. Don’t put up with abuse. It took me so long to find this out. Soon I’ll be gone and I can’t wait. Stay strong people. Not everyone can be. ❤️❤️

Walking away from it all…

Growing up in a family full of narcists and psychos. I made it out barely. I was raised to think I was going to be a no body. That I was just nothing. I was told I could have been given away and I’m lucky she didn’t. I get lied about and disrespected for defending my own family. I literally am accused of things that never happened only because of their jealously or because I spoke the TRUTH. People attack me and my family first then say I’m the one who started things. Never have I lied about anything I have said about a person and I never will. I’m 100 % honest and will always be that way. I am cutting the rotten ouy of my life for good. No more handouts no more shoulder for people to cry on no more listening. I’m done with it all. People are cruel and unjust in their behaviors. It’s apparently wrong to want face to face judgement and communication. Because everyone loves online now. Or whispers behinds everyone’s back. I’m a weird person I guess. I like to talk things out face to face. I have earned everything and did everything in my life on my own. I don’t get handouts, I don’t have a daddy bail me out. Shit the only dad I knew treated me like a piece of shit till I joined the military. But at the end of the day after all the bs I have learned I alone have my back. I alone have to defend myself and I alone will always be better than the spoiled, self rightious people I know. Here’s to never ever speaking to another soul in my life.

Life as I know it

It is so frustrating when people act as if you have all the time in the world. Everyone wants something from me whether it be my time, money, or something. Never do I get a break in this life. I’m constantly running out of time and never do I finish things all in one day. But I am reminded by other they too are impatient and need something from me. Why is it people can be so intrusive, cruel, use others whether it be for time or money, knowing it is wrong. I don’t get it. I love my life with my small family and there are people who just won’t leave us alone no matter how much I try to do the right thing. What is the right thing to do? Because no matter what I do, minding my own business people still emotionally abuse me. When will it stop? No matter how honest and up front I am, when will it stop?

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Life

When was life ever promised to be easy
When has it ever given the perception of perfection,
If you believe this to be true you are creating deception.
Life with out pain and suffering is something no one escapes.
Human beings are made up of love, pain & mistakes.
somethings will hurt inside, somethings will ache.
Life will give you love, hope, and dreams
Life is unknowing, and at times hard.
What you can count on is that once you are given life
It is up to you to do the best you can with what you are given.
Regardless of you trials and tribulations,
Look for kindness, patience, and a love from within
It starts with you till your very end
This life is yours and yours alone, do what makes you happy.
Don’t get sappy.
I enjoy my happy moments as you should yours
And when those hard days come
Don’t give up, become
The hero in your own story, don’t worry.
Smile at those that try to do you harm and
Give thanks to those that teach you in lessons of life.
We are all in it together whether you like it or not.

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